Keep Trusting.
It can be much easier to trust in the beginning of a difficult season. Sometimes it’s the longevity of a trial that can wear us down.. In the beginning, we determine ourselves to believe God and to trust Him no matter what- to choose Him and know He is faithful regardless of the circumstances. In my own experience, as the years went by and still no change, no healing, still suffering…I felt desperation and weariness set in like I’ve never known. I felt beat down like I could hardly stand. My emotions and spirit felt so broken, shattered, and weak that everyday tasks and everyday living felt so overwhelming and discouraging. My heart was so discouraged. I was in a pit of despair and had no idea how to get out of it. All my grasping and punching and kicking and fighting felt useless and had left me empty, broken, and exhausted in every sense of the word…
So what do we do in this place? We pray honest and raw prayers. Sometimes we feel as Christians -we have to keep it all together, have all the answers and tuck away our true feelings and fake our faith— instead of authentically bringing our doubts and discouragement to God. But God wants you to be real and honest before Him. Sometimes that broken, weak place can be the most beautiful place- a place where you realize your absolute need for God and learn to depend on Him- a place where you realize your strength will never suffice- but that IN your weakness HIS strength is made perfect and that in this place the power of Christ can rest upon us (2 Corinthians 12). How beautiful is that. That in our weakness— the power of Christ rests on US- when we are weak- then we are strong in HIS strength. It’s in this place- we learn to draw from His perfect strength.
Don’t hold back. Give Him your whole heart- the good, the bad, and the ugly. Lay everything out before Him and give permission to the Holy Spirit to do what only He can- when we do this- breakthrough is near. Our circumstance doesn’t always change- but our perspectives and our hearts do in this process.
Lord help me to see what you see. Help me to believe you are good when everything is not. Lord meet me here in this pit of despair…in this emptiness and pain that seems to have no end. Heal my wounded soul. Give me your perspective. Give me your strength.. In all my questioning, in all my doubt and discouragement. Meet me here. Speak to me. I am listening. I need to hear from you.
He says “Call to me and I will answer you.” Jeremiah 33:3
Sometimes He speaks to our hearts in that very moment. Other times silence seems as though it will never end and we have to keep pursuing His heart and opening our spiritual ears to hear from Him. “I waited patiently for the LORD; he turned to me and heard my cry. He lifted me out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and mire; he set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand. Psalm 40:1.
One of the most difficult things can be to continue to hold on to faith and to trust Him when our prayers go unanswered. It can be discouraging to continue to hold on to what you know to be true without seeing movement- to trust that He is faithful, that He is healer, that He will deliver, that He will come through even when we see no change. But what I have learned is when the break through or healing doesn’t come on our well thought timeline- He wants us to dig our heels deep into the soil of our faith and trust in Christ Alone. To place complete and total trust in HIM- not in what He can do- but simply in WHO HE IS. hold on to Him. Rest in Him. Trust that His ways are much higher than ours (Isaiah 55:8). That the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared to the glory which shall be revealed (Romans 8:18). That He will cause all things to work together for good for those who love and are called according to His purposes -Romans 8:28. I don’t know how He does it- but that is all a part of the wonder and mystery of who He is and what only the Holy Spirit can do in and through our lives.
Keep trusting friends. He is faithful.